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Sunday, February 04, 2007

rest week...

Maganda ang weekdays ko...

wlang mxadong gnwa sa school the whole week... foundation day kc... laging bc bchan ang mga prof.. kya lging wlang klase... ngbigay lng ng homeworks.. reports.. at grades.. masaklap lng.. ang mkita at mlaman ang mga nghihikahos na grades... huhu.. pambihira tlga... nkaka frustrate tlga... lalo na ang 74.6 sa immunology...

so.. gala mode lng... foodtrip.. or movie bum lng kina sandy... gusto sna ni kahling ng movies na mga kinakatay ang mga tao... uhh.. khit gusto ko xang panoorin at isipin nalng na autopsy yun.. indi din pumayag c betsky... kya nauwi kmi sa fragile, gravedancers at ang little children.. kya lng nkakaasar.. open end nanaman ang ending... akalain mu yun.. mgtatanan n nga lng sila naudlot pa dahil sa mga pangyayaring ndi namin maintindihan.. lalo na kung anung papel ni ronnie sa istorya... haha...

Sa wakas,,

ang pinaka masaya... ngpunta kmi ng zoo... mtagal na namin sanang plano.. kya lng indi mtuloi tuloi.... yehey... in fairness, pinapaganda na nila... kya lng walang mxadong animals kya mlungkot p rin... yung mga nandun.. parang indi pinapakain ng maayos... nkakaawa ung orangutan.. ang pangit n ng bahay nya.. at ang mga kapatid na unggoy.. bato ang ang gngwang candy... tsk tsk.. gusto sna namin sa avilon zoo.. kya lng.. wlang nkaka alam kung pano pumunta dun... hayy... pra kming bumalik sa pgka bata... nkakatuwa..

after, tuloi kmi sa sm north... my blind date c betsky.. kya lng on the last minute.. ng cancel yung guyfriend chuva nya.... tsk tsk.. too bad... bagong developement pa naman sana sa lovelife ni betsky...

At npka haba ng list ng mga gusto namin gawin lately... xmpre samin ni beth.. no. 1 ang mkpg intern this april batch.. kya lng.. mukhang malabo... huhu... so.. gusto naming mg swimming.. to celebrate betsky birthday... mag airsoft.. mg bowling.. mg wall climbing.. mg go kart.. at xmpre ang sarili kong listahan... sobrang haba.. haha... well at least.. marami n rin akong ngwa dun sa list ko..

Nung friday... ng exam lng c doc b.. kya after.. ng dvd hunting kmi ksama c daniel.. 10 yrs na kc yung pang exchange gift nya kay iane... imagine feb na ngayon.. sa sobrang ayaw ko pang umuwi.. niyaya ko c kahling na mg let's paint uli kya ng punta kmi sa cpoint.. gusto ko sana yung frame na house... (kya lng sbi ni ate, challenge daw yun...) compare sa unang choice ko na girl na may hawak na teddy bear at roses... kya lng my pinili ko yung mas madali.. haha...

3 hours to paint...

Masaya na sana ang buong linggo ko.. kya lng pgdting ng sabado... shit happens tlga sabi nga ni kahla... sana hindi nlng ako ng lakas lakasan ng loob na tingnan kng tama yung instincts ko... shet.. tama nga... mgkasama cla... fuck db... i know.. i know... i don't have any rights to get emotional like i am in now... i have no rights anymore... pero tao lng.. i'm freakin jealous and hurt until now... ayoko ng mg icip... i just wish everything will go away.. every little feelings that i'm having right now...

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Sunday, February 04, 2007 05:44 pm (joannie)

Sunday, January 28, 2007

bored...

currently..

bored to death..

wla akong mgwa... haaayyy.... kung anu anu nlng gngwa ko sa net... mg frenster.. mg online edit ng pictures... mg blog.. mgpatulong kay kahling ng pg eedit ng blog.. at lately, mg laro ng audition... which is nkakawindang lalo na pg mabilis ang song... hand eye coordination tlga...

my hinihintay akong txt.. kya lng.. wla.. tulog cguro.. miss na miss ko na xa... kung alam lng nya... well... at least my time xa ngayon... khit pano...

emote mode...

I love him still....

and i have this friend... grabe.. minsan ntatakot na ko sa knya... she always talk about death... laging suicidal mode... ndi ko alam kung anung ssbhin sa knya.. khit anung sbhin ko, gnun pa din...

hayy... tom... prang ayoko ng pumasok.. afraid of the midterms result... nkaka frustrate tlga...

wish ko lng.. indi naman floor grade ang results...

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Sunday, January 28, 2007 07:54 pm (joannie)

Thursday, January 25, 2007

finally..

finally..

midterms are over..

4 days of exams and nonstop reviews... para ng dinaanan ng bagyo yung kwarto ko sa dami ng books, papers at xerox na ngkalat sa kama ko...

and sakit sa ulo... para ng nakalutang yung brains ko.. glad its over.. next week naman uli.. for the results... (ayaw ko ng malaman... huhu..)

I dunno how in the world i could pass 7 major subjects for this sem... wish ko lang... sabi nga ni mam tess... challenging.. haha... bakit ba ko ng meddtttecchh... huhu...

So after exams, we indulged ourselves to a yummy DQ ice cream... nglakad sa araneta center at tumingin ng fish stuffs for sandy's aquarium... at ngayon lng namin nalaman na pwede palang lagyan ng methylene blue ang tubig ng aquarium pra mging mukhang malinaw.. stain na inaaksaya lng namin sa lab.. haha..

Sna maayos na namin tom. yung transcripts namin...

and after that..

yipee.. day out with the girls...

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Thursday, January 25, 2007 07:37 pm (joannie)

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Qot..

LOVE, LIKE RAIN, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.

"Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. "Life has to end," she said. "Love doesn't."

-The Five People You Meet in Heaven

My Favorite part... When Eddie met his wife Marguerite again in Heaven...

Somehow, a part of me is still holding on to love... sometimes wishing to go back in time where there's so much love... where i am a part of his world.. time when i really existed in his life... but now.. there's only memories.. and friendship... i still miss him like crazy... once in a while we keep in touch.. that what's matter right now.. i'm keeping the memories...

You'll always have a special place here....

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Saturday, January 20, 2007 04:08 pm (joannie)

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

miss you..

Am glad...

You're spendin more time lately...

I wish..

I wish... You'll stay spendin more time...

You know... How much... I miss you..

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007 05:54 pm (joannie)

Saturday, January 13, 2007

too bad...

Last thursday was hell...

After school, I was so happy pa naman coz i got to see him again after uhh... quite sometime na... i missed him a lot.. feelings won't easily fade right?....

So, when i got home, i regreted not listening to my mom not to go out anymore.. but i did anyway.. Ngpunta p rin ako sa shop namin... its already a ritual though... from a year and a half.. nothin bad naman hapens eventhough i stay until wee hours... kaya sanay na ko mgbantay with or without my brother.. lagi ko pa naman dala yung phone ko and placing it anywhere near my sight...

So i was doin my stuffs... checked my friendster acct, copied files from my phone... etc... like i always do.. Then, My brother went out to eat.. sabi nya sandali lang xa..

And there.. I was currently bloggin.. when 2 guys entered the shop.. i thought there gonna rent or ask something lang... and poof.. the guy who aproached me just reached out for my phone which was placed on the top of the CPU.. xmpre, reflex.. i tried gettin it back.. and there it was... gun was pointed at me... so ok.. i gave in.. he took my phone.. my mp4.. (damn.. wla pang 1 week since i bought it..) the shops money.. and the other guy took the customers phone and money...

Wla pang 5mins.. everythin was gone.. I was in the state of shock until the next day... it scared the hell out of me.. my heart kept on palpitating every 5 mins or so until i fell asleep... i barely remember their faces...

what hurts me most is that there are some files na wla akong copy in my phone... now its gone... yung contacts.. wala na rin.. I really cant understand how they can do such things.. easy money.. bahala na si Lord sa kanila...

But still, im glad no one was hurt...

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Saturday, January 13, 2007 12:32 pm (joannie)

Monday, January 08, 2007

Pyro..

My day started so early.. I was so sleepy pa.. kya lng my mom kept on buggin me to wake up.. we went to Quiapo to attend mass...

Afterwards...

Horaaaayyy...

I bought my mp4 player na... ang cute.. and its PINK xmpre... haha... So far.. Naaaliw naman ako... i can read e-books and fanfictions in it... at my brick game xa and other game stuffs.. haha.. kills time pag wlang gnagawa...

then we went to meisic mall... they called us kc my moms raffle won a 300 worth of goodies.. which turned out to be a cute bag.. rose candles, a clock.. and oh.. socks.. lol...

In the afternoon, me and the girls decided na tuloy kmi to watch the pyro olympics sa MOA... On the way.. grabe.. muntik ako mg freak out sa pgddrive ni yohan.. in fairness.. in 1 hour andun na kami...

Pgdting namin at 7pm.. grabe ang daming tao.. pti mga resto puno lahat.. so we didnt get the chance to eat dinner.. nauwi kmi sa nachos...

then ngkawalaan portion.. c yohan.. iniwan ang globe phone sa car at ang dinala.. SUN... late lahat ang messages kaya it turned out d xa nkapanood ng 1st phyro show sa kahahanap daw samin...

while watching the show.. yung girl sa likod ko with her bf.. grrr.. sobrang nakakaasar.. i dunno kung anung ngwa ko sa knya para sikuhin nya ko ng sikuhin the whole show.. ang laki naman ng space namin.. duh..

c kahla... na immeet namin sa MOA... 9:30pm na namin nkita.. xmpre kasama nya ang kanyang boylet the whole day... tpos na rin ang first show...

The second phyro show.. a lot better... mgkksma na kmi lahat watching the beautiful fireworks.. nakakatuwa... minus ate beth nga lang dhil ayaw nya sumama... yipee.. picture moments na..

c ate iane.. wla kaming pictures... camera shy...

at xmpre pa like a cinderella.. at exactly 12.. nsa bahay na ko... sorry guys.. d na kayo nkakain ng dinner... hehe.. lam nyo naman time table ko.. ^__^

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Monday, January 08, 2007 08:45 pm (joannie)

Monday, January 01, 2007

Happy New Year Everyone!...

Another New year...

Sna this year would be a lot better for me...

Last year, I consider it as the most crucial year of my life... physically, mentally and emotionally...a lot of changes took place.... I met a lot of people... found and lost a love... new friends has arrived... hard decisions has to be made.. school's harder than ever.. the stress... and at the most.. am sick most of the time than i had been in my entire life..

So the recent test shows that i have no choice tlga.. im gonna undergo surgery this year whether i like it or not... the cyst is gettin bigger and theres a new one already.. and I just hope no more intense pains for the coming months till the end of the semester..coz i have no intentions of stopping school now whatsoever...

There are certain moments na sobrang down na down ako.. So many negativities... Bakit ako pa from all the people.. The past years, am perfectly fine.. Tapos bigla nlng.. The physical pain is sometimes unbearable.. kya lng what's more unbearable is the thought na maraming tao ang mas nahihirapan sakin.. my mom.. sometimes i could see her cry... I can't even look at her... my dad.. my friends.. recently when i was hospitalized sila yung kasama ko nun.. sobrang thankful ako sa knila coz.. tlgang nawindang cla sakin... (thank you pampy.. ate beth.. sandy...) and sa lahat na tlagang pinag alala ko.. thank you tlga... sa mga dumalaw sakin.. thank you!..

Lately sobrang i've lost my faith.. I pretend nlng for everyone that am fine.. but on the inside, im having emotional struggles.. then.. God is still so good to me.. I had this very uplifting talk with someone... It really boosted up my spirits and self esteem.. I can never forget what he said..

Whatever you are experiencing now, it was meant to happen in your lifetime.. it's only an obstacle you have to face.. You are lucky enough compare to other people with what they are experiencing.. You have to be strong to go through it all.. you have so much stored for you in your lifetime.. You have a very wonderful life ahead of you.. You just have to be strong.. for yourself and to those who cares about you.."

After that.. I felt every negative feelings that i have.. was gone..

Im grateful for all the things that i have right now.. wonderful family... and good friends..

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Monday, January 01, 2007 03:19 pm (joannie)

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Bookish..

Yipee..

At last, functional na uli ang net...

Lately, besides from bein busy with medical chuva and sulking about it.. i've read some books... (aside from freakin school books xmpre..)

finally..

A friend of mine lent it to me.. One book was entitled Whistler's Hollow by Debbie Dadey.. (She said the book would make me cry...)

And I really did.. I dunno.. It was suppose to be a children's book.. but the story, i think it's too emotional to be read by a child.. too sad... I pity the young girl in the story because she was so lonely and alone.. Her mother died and her aunt sent her to a far away place.. to a distant family she never even have met before.. though they welcomed her and cared for her, she always believed that her dad will come back for her.. She kept the faith.. But he never did.. in the end.. She learned that her dad didn't really died in the war.. but.. has fallen in love with some french girl, not goin home.. and better off without her..

just think about it if you were in her place.. so heartbreaking..

Another book was Digital Fortress by Dan Brown...

I can't stop readin it till i finish it to the end.. haha.. i wanna read his Angels and Demons too.. anyone has a copy??

So what else...

oh.. my friend krizel had just delivered a healthy baby girl this early morning... yihee.. congratz!.. (xmpre ninang kami ha!...) too bad we can't visit her yet coz she's in Ilocos.. be back here soon okay??..

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Saturday, December 30, 2006 11:42 am (joannie)

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Crazy Night..

So.. ok..

its already 12:50am in the morning.. and here i am.. with my sis.. my ever loyal bestfriend whom i practically grew up with.. chattin almost with everyone online in her messenger.. and using her friendster.. and playin' mv.. and talkin to me all at the same time.. haha.. (as she was supposed to do a thesis...)

Well.. She practically knows everything about me.. almost.. haha.. Though we have our differences with a lot of things, still, here we are getting along like we haven't seen each other for ages.. (though we almost see each other everyday.. go out to shop or plainly talk about anythin we could think of..) haha.. So, lately our recent chismaxxs is about our undying love lifes.. well.. all i could say is that right now, she's happy bein single and having the time of her life...

and me...

all she could say is that "im the ULTIMATE MANHID" right now.. hayyysss... whatever.. i just don't wanna complicate more things as they are already.. i like the things or whomever as they are..

of course except that.. i'm really freakin misses someone right now... and i can't do anything about it.. sad..

how i wish you were here with me...

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006 10:52 pm (joannie)

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